Evidence of my Godhood

First of all, there's my name: My name is Jesse Lawrence Teshara. Jesse was the father of King David in the bible (the Jesse tree). Jesse means 'God's gift.' Jesse, without vowels, as in hebrew, is JSS, like a certain someone. In spanish, it's 'Jesus', pronounced hey-Zeus, another god. It translates in spanish to Chuy, too (like the eucharist wafer). It anagrams to 'see s.j.', referencing the society of jesus, i.e. the jesuits, a scholarly catholic order of priests and brothers. Jesuits see God in all things, like the letter S, which I have seen to represent Allah; or the Holy See, the former cardinal Ratzinger (who was named Benedict, my grandfather's name (on my dad's side)); or my wife Sara, because God is love. J sums to 1, and 'esse' means 'being' in latin; 1 being. God is One. Lawrence is my dad's name (Larry), which has law and war in it. Apparently, though, I come from a family of Gods. The surname Teshara contains Ra, Hara, Shara, Eshara, Ar, Har, and Set: all ancient Gods. The name is Portuguese, from Texeira. Teshara anagrams to 'he's a rat' (That's a zinger), 'the sara' (her initials are SLB: what if God was one of us, just a SLoB like one of us..-Joan Osborne), and 'as earth'.

The name 'Jesse' is in popular culture. There's Jesse Jackson, James, Owens, Helms, Ventura, McCartney, etc. There's JT's like John Travolta or Justin Timberlake. There's JLT in Jolt cola. There's the movie 'Dude, where's my car?' with the main characters Jesse and Chester. I crashed my car, (a brown Honda civic), and worked with a Chester at Walgreens. I also worked with a Jesus at Walgreens. There was the sitcom Jesse with Christina Applegate. There is Jesse Wells on all the Wells Fargo atm's. A Verizon commercial used my name. Jesse's girl is Sara Brown. She drives a black Honda. My sister, Sarah Salazar, died in the car crash. And, of course, there's Sarah Jessica Parker. I sometimes wonder if I didn't make her career. Put it on the "fast track," so to speak.

Speaking of cars, Jeep is Jesse with an emoticon ack (P) for the S.S. Sara's mom is a Montero, and her mom a Ramsey. There's the Ram and the Z71. My birthday is 9-3, and there's a Saab 9-3, too. My brother is GLT (like the Volvo). My mom is PT (like the cruiser). My dad is LT. My uncles are Jimmy and TT. My mom is a Hennessy (don't drink and drive, says M.A.D.D.), and thus an H. Sara has the SRS airbag, the SR5, the Sahara, the SL, and, for both of us, the S10 (J is the tenth letter), and the Jaguar XJS.

I am adopted. I am caucasian, but I have less of a sense of ethnic or national identity. My blood could have been anyone. My dad may have been a Mudd..mudblood. My birthfamily links to Harry Potter in a weird way. My birthmom is Annette Riddle. Voldemort (lord move t) is a Riddle. Sarah, my birthsister, was a Salazar. Salazar Slytherin founded his namesake's school. Mainly though, I'm just crazy and like to think I am. For fun. Christ just means annointed, so I could splash some olive oil on myself and dub myself Christ if I so chose. I'm not really all that fond of Jesus, though. Since the prince of peace, we've had two world wars... I read the (apocryphal) Gospel of Thomas, where Jesus killed people. No one makes fish appear out of thin air or walks on water without a little hocus-pocus. All is vanity. Jesus H. Christ.

I went to a jesuit high school, St. Ignatius, in San Francisco, after going to St. Stephen's (three catholic saints). I was taught English (the word is God), by Fr. John Murphy, who, one could imagine, popularizes the eucharist at Papa John's or Papa Murphy's. I worked at Woodstock's Pizza in Davis, after working at Walgreens. I am a flower child, born in '71. I wanted the 2000 election to be decided by one vote (and it was), to empower voters. Walgreens= W/Al/Greens. In Davis, I met a David who told me Al Gore was the antichrist. In numerology, antichrist sums to 4, as does Jesse and David and Al. I have met a Four. The book of numbers is the 4th book of the bible. I voted for Gore, anyway.

Besides my name, my wife, corporate things like cars and walgreens and Harry Potter, and the fact that I am (exist), I am a genuinely concerned and kind person. I was even voted most kind in grammar school. That was in '85, lol. I majored in Third World Studies at UC Davis. I read Anne Rice and became kind of obsessed with vampires and Hannibal Lecter, though. Anne has since written about Jesus. And ol' H has become ubiquitous. Hannibal the cannibal is an archetype that has penetrated the american psyche, subconscious, conscious, what-have-you. The most popular children's name in America is Hannah. I wrote about malaria in college, and Bill Gates and others have since made strides to reduce the impact of this disease. I like to think I have made a difference, in the collective unconscious, perhaps even as a global telepath. Perhaps I am the same as everyone else (and as little or great as I think of myself as).

As to whether a being created the universe, I, God, am agnostic. There are agnostic theists and agnostic atheists. I do not believe I am a figment of my own imagination. I may yet create the universe, lol.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter

We praise His Name

You can't spell Jesse without JSS.
He (the prince of peace?) came not to bring peace, but the sword
what a mess(iah).
P-raisin'!
what's the s-word?

Happy wester, too.